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dmitry, he/him • 22 yo • russia • disabled, neurodivergent, chronically mentally ill • attack on titan, kimetsu no yaiba, death note, good omens, the witcher netflix • "sometimes words are not enough. there are some circumstances so utterly wretched that i cannot describe them in sentences or paragraphs or even a whole series of books."
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Steven Universe Colouring Book Vol 01  Publisher: Dark Horse Comics   (A) Coleman Engle, Aatmaja Pandya (A/CA) Gale Galligan ...
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Steven Universe Colouring Book Vol 01 Publisher: Dark Horse Comics (A) Coleman Engle, Aatmaja Pandya (A/CA) Gale Galligan ...

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Everything you have ever felt Everything you’ve buried
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Everything you have ever felt Everything you’ve buried

motherfuckers will be like “I’m baby” and then exhibit signs of object permanence

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motherfuckers will be like “I’m baby” and then exhibit signs of object permanence

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i have returned to clarify

26 days ago

i have returned to clarify

About ten years ago I decided that the next step I needed to take in my life was to accept and explore what it meant to be a failure and to have failed. This infuriated almost everybody in my life and clearly terrified a lot of people. People do not want you to accept failure. They dont want you to like... Sit with and think about it and pick it up and turn it arpund in your hands and really examine it. They want you to keep throwing yourself against the impossible walls until your body explodes! They do not want you to say "alright then, I've failed. What does that mean for me? Im still here. What does the life of someone who has failed look like?"

This makes people very angry and panicky.

My mental health improved in ways it had not in the previous DECADE once I stopped. And. Sat. With failure. And thought about what my failure ... Was. And looked at the structures that produced it and examined them critically.

It is so taboo to fail and admit it openly and talk about it. It is so taboo to talk about or think about failure in an accepting way rather than hiding it shamefully until you experience a degree of success in some area which allows you to present the past failure as "a stepping stone" to your current situation. Fuck that. We are put in positions of guaranteed failure by society every day and then punished and shamed for it. Lets fucking talk about failure

26 days ago

About ten years ago I decided that the next step I needed to take in my life was to accept and explore what it meant to be a...

I got a lot of beef with the concept of dust. absolutely no reason for something to get dirty just because nothing has touched it. bullshit.

27 days ago

I got a lot of beef with the concept of dust. absolutely no reason for something to get dirty just because nothing has touched...

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george meowchael

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george meowchael

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hijabi knight 🌙

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hijabi knight 🌙

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Trees, like animals, can also experience albinism, though it is extremely rare.

27 days ago

Trees, like animals, can also experience albinism, though it is extremely rare.

I’m watching that documentary “Before Stonewall” about gay history pre-1969, and uncovered something which I think is interesting.

The documentary includes a brief clip of a 1954 televised newscast about the rise of homosexuality. The host of the program interviewed psychologists, a police officer, and one “known homosexual”. The “known homosexual” is 22 years old. He identifies himself as Curtis White, which is a pseudonym; his name is actually Dale Olson.

So I tracked down the newscast. According to what I can find, Dale Olson may have been the first gay man to appear openly on television and defend his sexual orientation. He explains that there’s nothing wrong with him mentally and he’s never been arrested. When asked whether he’d take a cure if it existed, he says no. When asked whether his family knows he’s gay, he says that they didn’t up until tonight, but he guesses they’re going to find out, and he’ll probably be fired from his job as well. So of course the host is like …why are you doing this interview then? and Dale Olson, cool as cucumber pie, says “I think that this way I can be a little useful to someone besides myself.”

1954. 22 years old. Balls of pure titanium.

Despite the pseudonym, Dale’s boss did indeed recognize him from the TV program, and he was promptly fired the next day. He wrote into ONE magazine six months later to reassure readers that he had gotten a new job at a higher salary.

Curious about what became of him, I looked into his life a little further. It turns out that he ultimately became a very successful publicity agent. He promoted the Rocky movies and Superman. Not only that, but get this: Dale represented Rock Hudson, and he was the person who convinced him to disclose that he had AIDS! He wrote the statement Rock read. And as we know, Rock Hudson’s disclosure had a very significant effect on the national conversation about AIDS in the U.S.

It appears that no one has made the connection between Dale Olson the publicity agent instrumental in the AIDS debate and Dale Olson the 22-year-old first openly gay man on TV. So I thought I’d make it. For Pride month, an unsung gay hero.

dude had guts, someone needs to update his Wikipedia page

27 days ago

I'm watching that documentary "Before Stonewall" about gay history pre-1969, and uncovered something which I think is...

ok but for real sanemi looking at nezuko and seeing genya? broke my fucking heart. lemme elaborate. 

The first time we see Sanemi, he attacks Nezuko. And while we, the audience, definitely don’t like it, cause that’s our girl! don’t hurt her! It’s understandable on his end, especially considering how his family died, etc etc. He’s afraid of losing more people to this demon who, under the rules of the Demon Slayers Corps, has no right to be there. 

Meanwhile, Sanemi treated Genya in a somewhat similar way: pushing him away, treating him kinda awfully, but in a roundabout sort of way doing it all for Genya’s own safety. 

I’m not trying to say Sanemi’s treatment of Nezuko (stabbing her and goading her into attacking him) are on the same level as his treatment of Genya (aggressively ignoring him and trying to get him to leave the corps). They’re not comparable, and his treatment of both of them (especially Nezuko) was rather uncalled for (though still understandable to a degree). 

I’m also not saying Sanemi immediately saw Nezuko as a sibling equivalent, because he definitely didn’t.

I’m saying that she has the potential to become one. 

Sanemi Shinazugawa has lost way too much for the average 20 something year old. He’s seen too much, had to experience too much, and generally just deserves a break (and really, who doesn’t?). He deserves a lot of things, many of which just aren’t possible. I think more than anything, he deserves a chance to reconcile with Genya, and be the brother he didn’t have the chance to be. 

To have that little moment with Nezuko, to see that parallel between Nezuko and Genya - that’s his chance! That’s his chance to start again, to be a better brother, to have a chance at a life that he lost when he didn’t make it home fast enough all those years ago. 

Nezuko Kamado is a lot of things to a lot of characters in Kimetsu no Yaiba. But to Sanemi, she’s a second chance, and a reason to keep on trying and fighting and staying alive. And I think that’s very important, and very heartwarming - at the very least, it was a little moment that made my heart very happy. 

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28 days ago

more ch 204 spoilers! feat. some rambly thoughts about sanemi

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rem and misa……….

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rem and misa……….

your needs are just as important as the needs of those around you

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your needs are just as important as the needs of those around you

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just felt like drawin some Soft Bodies

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just felt like drawin some Soft Bodies

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5/3/20 4:22 PM A small but growing body of evidence suggests the virus invades other organs and tissues, causing heart...

I am my personality disorder, and there’s more to me than my personality disorder. It doesn’t contradict.

1 month ago

I am my personality disorder, and there’s more to me than my personality disorder. It doesn’t contradict.

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Yennefer of Vengerberg // 1.07 “Before a Fall”
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Yennefer of Vengerberg // 1.07 “Before a Fall”

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why are people even questioning obesity in america

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why are people even questioning obesity in america

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[Image: a short Twitter thread by Minaa B. Text reads: “Someone needs to hear this:   Your thoughts are not the only thing...

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[Image: a short Twitter thread by Minaa B. Text reads: “Someone needs to hear this: Your thoughts are not the only thing...

when the sky is a certain color and you’re outside and your entire being aches

1 month ago

when the sky is a certain color and you’re outside and your entire being aches

You don’t need to debate Nazis, you can just, like, hit them with a brick.

1 month ago

You don’t need to debate Nazis, you can just, like, hit them with a brick.

im gonna remove my nervous system so i wont be nervous anymore. cant believe what a good idea this is why did no one else do this

1 month ago

im gonna remove my nervous system so i wont be nervous anymore. cant believe what a good idea this is why did no one else do...