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Q: Love at first sight or love that grows over time?XZ: Love that grows over time.WYB: Love at first sight.

All I know and think about these answers. This is kinda long. Better not read it unless you’re willing to or already believe in yizhan.

Let me start with Zhan-ge’s answer cuz that one is easy enough to give an explanation to by just looking at that love-themed Bazaar video from 191116.

When/love — when I woke up from my dreamWhere/love — in my dreamWhat/love — I love your eyes the mostWho/love — you’re the one I love mostYou/love — loving you allowed me to be my most extraordinary selfXZ/love — I am XZ. I love you.

Zhan-ge has referred to the summer of 2018 as a “dream” before. He said when the filming stopped and he didn’t have to go to set and put on his costume anymore, it felt like the dream ended. He also referred to that summer as unforgettable. Here’s a passage of something he wrote in his Secret Garden (a now-privatized groupchat for him and his fans on his weibo):

Everything in 2018 was like a dream to me. In the dream, I expressed myself to my heart’s content. In the dream there were many fresh faces, exciting things, endless challenges to overcome. (transl. by BXG1823 on twt)

This is why bxg think that the “dream” in his answers is actually the “summer of 2018″ which would mean that the person he loves, the one he is referring to in that Bazaar video, is someone from the cast of CQL. Zhan-ge also said that the summer of 2018 changed him, it made him come out of his shell since according to himself he used to be more of an introvert. He attributed that change to the role he played but maybe, the ones he worked with influenced that, too. And we all know thanks to ggdd’s own words but also the words from their co-stars and the staff that there is no one gg has gotten along better or spent more time with than Yibo.So according to XZ’s answers, although he met his love in the dream, that love didn’t “start” until after the dream ended. There is more than one way to look at it but any way you do; I think this theory is one possible explanation for his answer of “love that grows over time”. He did not fall in love with Yibo at first sight. Please also keep in mind that XZ refers to their first meeting as “in my dream” i.e. the summer of 2018 - I’ll get back to this later.

Now let’s look at Yibo’s answer of “love at first sight”. The first time he met XZ was on 170314, when X9 visited DDU. Both XZ and WYB have said in interviews that they didn’t interact beyond greeting and they didn’t leave any particular impressions on each other - and yet, bxg still theorize that Yibo might have felt… something at first sight with XZ.

In August 2017, XZ made a weibo post, congratulating DDU on their 9th birthday. The official DDU account commented on that post with a thank you and also said that one of their colleagues had already become his fan. They added a minion emoji to that comment and according to fans who’ve followed him longer than I, Yibo was obsessed with minions at that time. There was also a rumor that Yibo supposedly wanted to ask XZ for his wechat when he was on DDU but he was too shy to so DZW asked for him and ggdd did end up adding each other back then already. This was supposedly confirmed by ggdd themselves when they said that they wanted to add each other once they started working together on CQL but realized that they already had each other saved on wechat. (“supposedly” because according to two C fans I trust, this info is most likely true but they can’t seem to find its source. It may be something that a staff member on set of CQL anonymously revealed but that has now gotten lost. Still, take it with a grain of salt. If they ever do find the source, I will add it.) If that is true, then obviously they must have added each other in 2017 - but never actually chatted - because as far as we know, they didn’t meet each other between March 2017 and April 2018.Something that corroborates the theory of dd’s “love at first sight”; according to the producer of CQL, Yibo got rejected twice before being given a third chance, this time to audition in person in late March 2018. By that time, XZ had already been confirmed as WWX. Yibo’s schedule was very busy at the time and yet, he still made time to audition for a BL drama. Plus, Yibo was already fairly famous back then and had signed up for P101 which was bound to make him even more famous. And for any remotely famous idol to audition for a BL was pretty… unthinkable. Before he went to the audition in person, there were two other actors who got rumored to play LWJ. After the audition, the rumors were only about Yibo, getting the role - which was enough for many of Yibo’s solo fans to drop him. Please don’t take him to be stupid, though - Yibo knew full well what he was doing, he knew about the possible negative repercussions of getting cast in a BL, yet insisted on trying for that role.

To get back to XZ, first meeting his love “in his dream”; it’s worth noting that every single time ggdd get asked or talk about the first time they met, gg refers to their meeting in the canteen when they started filming CQL but dd always reminds him/us that the first time they met was on DDU. Evidently, their very first meeting left a stronger impression on one of them than on the other.Take a look at their Bazaar interview for example. That interview was recorded on 180728, it’s the very first interview they had together. Since there was a little accident during it, Bazaar visited them on set at some point, no more than a month later, and interviewed them again. There’s an obvious difference between the first and second interview. I daresay, they are more prepared and composed in the second one but more honest in the first one. Notice their reaction to the questions about their first impressions and how those impressions changed by now.

I think those reactions are explainable if you assume that Yibo had already told XZ about his honest first impression of him back when they first met. Since Zhan-ge’s love for Yibo “grew over time”, I don’t believe that he reciprocated at that point but he must have been willing to… after all, they did go on a date together on 180618, after they finished filming for that day. On 180619, Yibo had to catch a flight to Changsha to record HappyCamp and he was wearing the same outfit he wore the evening before. According to ggdd themselves, the rooms they stayed in while filming CQL were right across one another - so why would Yibo not change? Unless of course, they didn’t go back to those rooms after their date. There’s also the fact that in the HC episode, recorded on 180619 and released on 180707, Yibo was in an unusually good mood.No matter how I look at this, I can’t reconcile it with the idea that they were nothing more than “bros” even if they only knew each other for about two months by then. I don’t think they were lovers yet, either, since XZ’s answer to “when/love” was “when I woke up from my dream”. What I do think is what I already mentioned before, that maybe at that point, dd already told gg what he felt at first sight and even though gg might not have immediately felt the same, he knew that he could so, he allowed his love for Yibo to grow over time.

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My most recent ask made me wanna write a list of all the times Wang Yibo lk proved us right. He is so damn bold sometimes… It shouldn’t even surprise me anymore but gdi, it does.

In the TTXS episode from 200503, Yibo pointed at a broken light on the ceiling and said “the light atop the snowy summit” (it’s not in the episode itself; this was anonymously shared by a staff member the day before). This is a reference to a phrase that bxg have made up, as an innocent alternative to what its abbreviation actually stands for: bjyxszd either means “two men atop the snowy summit” or “bjyx is real”.On 191102, Yibo noticed the neon banner that said “two men atop the snowy summit” and pointed it out to XZ (I don’t remember if this is from a fancam or from ChenQingYouth)In the TTXS episode from 200517, Yibo had to make a flower arrangement together with one of the guests and they named it 一期一会 yiquiyihui - which is the title of one of the two biggest bjyx fansites’ video series of ggdd when they were on set of CQL.On 191110, while he was sitting on the hosts’ couch, a fan who was wearing a 王肖 headband called out to him, he looked up at her and then smiled. The fans’ own video is private but here’s a video of his reaction from a different angle.On 190729 of course, when he and gg got asked to describe the summer of 2018 and Yibo deadass replied “zenqingshigan”.Also on 190729, when ggdd got asked to choose a song to describe each other and Yibo replied “Nan Hai”.

On 190730 when dd posted a video of gg’s most memorable scene from CQL at 18:21.On 200112, after an interview got released in which dd confirms that he uses an alternative weibo account, a bxg posted in the bjyx supertopic, asking dd to let them know he sees what they share by posting his next weibo at minute 55. That same day, he posted two photos of himself from Weibo Night with the caption “Weibo, ten years. I have you guys ♥” at 14:55.His oasis update of his brand-new shoes from 191121. It’s not noticeable at first glance but the shoes’ sizes are different. The shoes in his oasis update from 191101 may also be different or else, solely meant for gg since we actually got to see him wear those on 191228 + Yibo left the tag of those shoes on when he himself wore them in a TTXS episode that was recorded in December and released on 200119. Similarly, gg was seen wearing an Iceberg jacket that can only be bought by professional motorcyclists. In 191208′s episode of TTXS, Yibo then mentioned that when he buys new clothes and shoes, he has them shipped home to share.His now-deleted “Happy New Year” weibo post from 191129.His weibo story from 200521, posted at 20:03.

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My most recent ask made me wanna write a list of all the times Wang Yibo lk proved us right. He is so damn bold sometimes... It...

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I’ve always wondered if WYB and XZ had previous relationships (even pre-debut, especially for XZ), or even ships like theirs...

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When I was reading the novel I haven't actually caught what you talked about. I was totally not okay with their dreams and wwx...

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THANK YOU for putting into words all the reason wangxian in the novel freaks me out. Lan Zhan outright disgusted me but then...

I think one of the things that amazes me the most about Lan Zhan - only cql!LanZhan, mind you - and his love for Wei Ying is how truly selfless it is. He doesn’t expect or need anything in return. He loves him just for the sake of who he is. He waited 16 years for this man, not even knowing if his feelings are or ever were reciprocated. He gets jealous, yes, but he never acts on it. He supports Wei Ying, not in hopes of a reward but simply because he loves him. He never intends to “own” him, all he wants is to be with him, as a friend or a lover, doesn’t matter which… just as long as Wei Ying is alive and Lan Zhan gets to stay by his side, always…

You are not wrong about CQL LWJ being better. I felt it too. And the part you mentioned MDZS Lwj being Het women’s fantasy. You are not wrong about that either

And as for me. Me preferring show over books have lot of reason. The blindfold kiss scene is another consent debate but it also, I mean you how can as wangxian shipper you can okay with it when the first kiss doesn’t have them looking in eyes. The Cql made their relationship more deep, profound and mature. They actually showed how they are soulmate. Sorry but books don’t do that.

Also disagree about people kink shaming wwx is books. That’s another topic of debate.

I know censorship restrained a lot but I loved how much romantic they managed to show in series nd a healthy relationship for a gay couple.

This post isn’t even about the non-con scenes, and how the writing clearly romanticizes them. Or how this was obviously written by a het who seems to be unable to wrap her head around the fact that queer relationships don’t have the unappealing, unequal power dynamic that is ingrained in het relationships and therefore applies it on a gay couple. Those are both things I mentioned (my disgust of) in previous posts.

This was just smth that struck me while watching one of the scenes in CQL in which Lan Zhan gets jealous. Unlike book!LZ, he never acts on his jealousy in any way.In the novel, teenage Lan Zhan acts aggressively towards Wei Ying when he gets jealous and only to make himself feel better. What Wei Ying wants or feels in those instances doesn’t matter to him. Book!Lan Zhan does not give the impression that he loves WY selflessly cuz he acts too possessively - which makes it seem like he wants to “own” WY. LZ seems to love him with the expectation that WY will eventually love him back. The fact that he dreamed about raping WY when they were 15 and barely knew each other doesn’t help that impression either… it gives him that much more of a predatory vibe… it almost makes it seem like that’s what it was all for. Lan Zhan’s love for Wei Ying isn’t entirely selfless in the novel. That’s why I felt the need to point out that the thoughts in my original post are only about CQL!Lan Zhan.

Although I obviously don’t approve of the homophobic censorship in general, it certainly forced the writers to make CQL!Lan Zhan a much better character in regards to his relationship with Wei Ying - which I am very grateful for.

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I think one of the things that amazes me the most about Lan Zhan - only cql!LanZhan, mind you - and his love for Wei Ying is how...

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i really the “heterolization” of gay relationships in BL media, because it’s plainly disrespectful to a) gay men and also b)...

Yibo has been a host on TTXS since 2016. His co-hosts are like brothers, like his second family. The two oldest ones, DaZhangWei and WangHan, are already married. QianFeng and GaoTianhe are single. Yibo is supposedly single, too - and yet, at some point in 2019, his brothers have stopped (even jokingly) setting him up with any young lady who visits their show. They do still play matchmaker for QF and GT but not for Yibo. Now, they usually purposefully exclude him from talks about relationships, saying things like “he is too busy” or “he is too young”… (even though he was obv younger before lol). There are also some other things that his brothers or Yibo himself have unintentionally said or done to further indicate that Yibo is… involved with a certain someone.This list is probably incomplete, it’s just all I could think of or find again. I didn’t feel the need to include examples but if you follow ggdd closely, you already know what everything is referencing.

180603 - Yibo: When I’m 40, I want to have a small yard and a dog. If I have a child, it would be nice for the child and the dog to play together.QF: Fence, woman and dog.DZW: No, he didn’t mention a woman.

190721 - WH suggested Yibo would be a cool/stoic husband. DZW: Actually, I think Yibo would have a lot to say to his beloved.

190728 - This is the episode in which gg was a guest. There are fancams in which you can see ggdd, discussing what team name to pick. According to fans who read their lips, dd asked gg “bojunyixiao bu hao ma? = Is bjyx not good?” - to which gg shook his head in reply.

190825 - DZW joked about how Yibo needs a boyfriend, not a girlfriend. This segment was cut from the actual episode. There are fancams, though.

191013 - When asked why he wants to sell his scented candles, Yibo couldn’t reply so DZW quickly joked about how he must’ve invited someone over who never made it - which got Yibo adorably flustered.In this same episode, dd had to go grocery shopping (sort of) and put a bunch of snacks - including Lays, which gg endorses - in the cart, even though he himself doesn’t like snacks.

191117 - Yibo: That’s how love is. You can’t control it.

191124 - Yibo asked one of the female guests why she is so pale (which is considered a compliment, tbc) and one of his brothers said “you shouldn’t say things like that anymore” before WH joked about how he should leave those kind of lines to QF. I’m not sure if that line was cut from the episode or not.

191208 - Yibo talked about how his parents don’t shop online but he himself buys shoes and clothes to share and has them shipped home. When QF asked “Your shoes and clothes??”, DZW jumped in to joke about how Yibo’s parents are cool dancers, too. Sidenote: Yibo hasn’t lived with his parents since he was 14 or so. They live in his hometown, Luoyang. His current residence is Beijing which is btw also where gg lives.

200209 - WH asked QF and GT “what romantic things would you do for your future other half?”. He put the question a little differently when he asked Yibo “In the future, what romantic things would you do for your other half?”

200517 - Yibo had to make a bouquet together with one of the guests and they named it 一期一会 yiquiyihui - which happens to be the title of one of the biggest bjyx fansites’ series of videos of ggdd, on the set of CQL.

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Xiao Zhan said in this interview from last October that he wouldn’t hide it if he were in a relationship. He can’t exactly be open about it either, though. Therefore, fans assume that he might show his love through his songs.As far as I know, there were four times within the last year that Zhan-ge changed the lyrics of love songs - possibly to better fit him and his lover.

190712 Fanmeeting: Kepler

Changed the last line, I became a star → I love a lonely star

191124 Our Song: Green Light

Changed the lyrics so four consecutive lines started with Y, B, X, Z. He also uploaded a selfie that same evening with the caption “was it good to hear?” - maybe referring to the rap part since Yibo is a rapper but gg himself is a vocal… (see more)

200112 Our Song: Summer Breeze

After they sang this, Zhan-ge got asked why he insisted on singing that song. This conversation was cut from the actual episode, we only know about it thanks to fans who took voice recordings.

He sang a few lines of Summer Breeze in an earlier episode, too. Here, at minute 58. That time, he changed the lyrics slightly. The moment the wind blew was full of loneliness → the moment the wind blew past your face full of loneliness

200119 Our Song: Tempting Heart

He didn’t change the lyrics of this song but I still think it’s worth mentioning because again, he got asked why he chose this song and again, his answer didn’t make it into the episode.You can tell by the lyrics that this one is a bittersweet love song. And Zhan-ge afterwards says that he sung it before but he didn’t understand the pain in it back then… implying that he does understand it now…

200126 Our Song: Stars in the Sun

Translated version. Changed the lyrics so that they were directed at someone younger - instead of someone older as in the original.

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Xiao Zhan said in this interview from last October that he wouldn’t hide it if he were in a relationship. He can’t exactly be...